Yoga has many lessons to teach us inside and out
January 25, 2009 - 10:00 pm
I seem to be on a tear lately of jumping headlong into the deep end of pools of my ignorance. Activities and endeavors about which I know nothing. Such as learning to dance. Getting clobbered in chess by my 7-year-old son. Skeet shooting. Using my first laptop computer. Vacuuming (I've been divorced for nearly three years and I think I finally figured out what was going on with the carpet).
And now yoga. A friend takes me to yoga.
She described it as "calming the chaos of the mind." Which is good for me, because I'm really into chaos. Rest tends to make me restless. Quiet is noisy stuff. Relaxing makes me tired and irritable. Tranquility sorta bugs me. I'm reluctant to achieve Enlightenment, because I'm worried it's going to be dull. In college, I could never study in the library. Too distracting.
Left up to me, my brain will sometimes try to eat itself.
So, yoga. I'm gonna learn yoga.
I haven't been buried in so many affirmations and so much self-esteem since I last watched "Mr. Rogers' Neighborhood." It turns out that "I-I-I caaan." It turns out that "my best is enough." It seems I'm "part of the divine" and the divine in my instructor keeps recognizing the divine in me. Like, maybe they went to high school together. "What you can do is all you can do," the instructor says to me slowly, patiently, eyebrows raised, just pedantic enough so I notice but not enough to tick me off.
There's, like, a whole language that comes with this. The teacher leads us through a series of poses. And the poses have Sanskrit names, named for animals and cosmos and geography.
I ace the first pose right off. Tadasana (tuh-dah-suh-nuh) -- the mountain. You stand, feet together, hands by your side. Got it. I'm the skinniest mountain ever, but a mountain to be sure.
Now uttanasana (ooo-tuh-nah-suh-nuh), intense stretch pose, and prasarita padottanasana (prah-sah-reeta puh-dot-tuh-nah-suh-nuh), same thing with legs wide. Got it. Just like in basketball warm-ups, 'cept I'm not frenetically chewing Juicy Fruit gum.
Then things accelerate. The warrior. The cobra. Down dog. Half moon. Chair. Fierce chair (my quads hurt). Pigeon. King pigeon (mine looks more like roadkill armadillo). Upward bow. Wheel pose (which, for me, quickly collapses into Beached Whale).
At one point, I look up, and I see they have replaced our teacher with an inspirational hologram. I assume, anyway, because had a human being with an actual skeleton gotten into that position, I would have heard things breaking.
It descends rapidly into a game of TwisterFromHell, but all by yourself. Pretty sure the teacher just asked me to reach through my spleen and grab my right ankle while placing my left foot on top of my head.
But still, I was glad to make a creative contribution to the class. I was inventing poses left and right! There was Old Man, Panicked Old Man, dweebasana, geekottana, and I capped it all off with fallonmyassana.
So, Steven, what do you think of yoga?
You mean, when I could walk again?
I think yoga is worship. Church in your body. I think it crucifies you, because it knows that's the only way to resurrect you. It empties you of you, and then connects you with yourself. It makes you small. Then whole. Then powerful. But quiet.
I'm gonna rethink this "quiet" thing.
It teaches you to breathe. Respiration. Respire, inspire, aspire, expire. Spire. Spiritus. Spirit. I'm reminded of the word "dignity," from the Latin digne -- "the breath of God."
See, people like me forget to breathe. Depressed people, too. And scared people. And perfect people. Geez, perfect is so dull.
Oxygen is our friend.
Yoga teaches me something astonishing. Very little worth having requires my rigor, straining, grimacing or grunting. Some things are better experienced than achieved. Some things are better received than wrought.
I'm a very intense guy. But not everything needs my intensity. Turns out I don't even need it most of the time.
We end with savasana, the corpse pose. I call it Unable To Move Regardless pose. Flat on my back. Eyes shut. Motionless. The teacher leads us through a meditation. Suddenly I'm aware that my friend has reached over to squeeze my hand. I think, "Why is she holding my hand?"
Then it hits me. Uh-oh. I wince. Then start giggling.
"Snoring?"
"Uh-huh," she says.
Seems I confused meditating with sleeping. Common yoga faux pas.
Steven Kalas is a behavioral health consultant and counselor at Clear View Counseling Wellness Center in Las Vegas and the author of "Human Matters: Wise and Witty Counsel on Relationships, Parenting, Grief and Doing the Right Thing" (Stephens Press). His columns appear on Sundays. Contact him at skalas@reviewjournal.com.